present status-i have js thrown away 4 prime years of my life.realized am cut out for something far above this and am still ignorant abou 'what' the something is..!!
I am forced to look around to find things happening around me..am forced to find discoveries propping up at every nook and corner of the world...i know am a dissappointment...not only to myself but to a lot of people around me...bt basically...am js confused!!i dont even have age on my side to blame...cos am out of the 'troublesome' teenage years...n i havent entered da 30's for my mid life crisis to get the better of me...i understand that am making it hard for myself...if things around mi need to change,i need to,n for mi to change my thoughts need to ,n for my thoughts to change, i need to break out of my cocoon which is much too comfortable...
i am old enough,i feel to face the wrath of life all on my own...i am still the pampered girl of my parents...the one who brings cheer to their lives...they have but me n no one else to lend color to their lives...i am exposed to nothing i understand...like gigi calls mi rightly..am a 'baby'...i need to grow up...21 yrs in this world hasnt done me any good...da dark stories i hear are js stories to mi...n so they will remain!!shit man...feel like a loser!!
this is definitely the story of a lotta people i noe around me...for all the confused souls around me...lets just take da plunge!!
the other day i googled Arundhathi Roy to know more about her..i had just finished reading her prize winning novel-'The God of Small Things'.As a 16 yr old she moved out of her home...adopted the homeless lifestyle...made a living for herself in a squaltter colony in Delhi by selling empty bottles...put herself through the Delhi School of Architecture and got herself a life...
i may not have made a lotta sense fom outta her novel i just finished reading!reading it before ya r old enough may have been one reason...i totally lost it..cos i managed to get my hands on it the yr it won the bookers..n then i was a kid who din hav enough patience to get through with something i found no pleasure in.............................
I am forced to look around to find things happening around me..am forced to find discoveries propping up at every nook and corner of the world...i know am a dissappointment...not only to myself but to a lot of people around me...bt basically...am js confused!!i dont even have age on my side to blame...cos am out of the 'troublesome' teenage years...n i havent entered da 30's for my mid life crisis to get the better of me...i understand that am making it hard for myself...if things around mi need to change,i need to,n for mi to change my thoughts need to ,n for my thoughts to change, i need to break out of my cocoon which is much too comfortable...
i am old enough,i feel to face the wrath of life all on my own...i am still the pampered girl of my parents...the one who brings cheer to their lives...they have but me n no one else to lend color to their lives...i am exposed to nothing i understand...like gigi calls mi rightly..am a 'baby'...i need to grow up...21 yrs in this world hasnt done me any good...da dark stories i hear are js stories to mi...n so they will remain!!shit man...feel like a loser!!
this is definitely the story of a lotta people i noe around me...for all the confused souls around me...lets just take da plunge!!
the other day i googled Arundhathi Roy to know more about her..i had just finished reading her prize winning novel-'The God of Small Things'.As a 16 yr old she moved out of her home...adopted the homeless lifestyle...made a living for herself in a squaltter colony in Delhi by selling empty bottles...put herself through the Delhi School of Architecture and got herself a life...
i may not have made a lotta sense fom outta her novel i just finished reading!reading it before ya r old enough may have been one reason...i totally lost it..cos i managed to get my hands on it the yr it won the bookers..n then i was a kid who din hav enough patience to get through with something i found no pleasure in.............................
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